FRIENDS?

Yup, here to blog.
Before I say anything, I would like to apologise to both of you first.

"Sorry."

Well, although I said sorry but I don't feel that everything I'm in the wrong because I did think whether am I the one who is in the wrong.

I apologised because I really shouldn't quarrel with you guys because of what she says.

Because she's not even a part of my life, because she's not even a part of HS and because she only is close with the 4 of us before so she can't me just like that.

I guess that I'm just so so freaking disappointed when you two actually agrees on what she says.
Why?

Just so because that you two and ac are people that is so important to me before, now and even in the future.
So I don't understand why both of you would say such things when the goodfrends whom I hold less important than you two actually understands why without me even explaining to them.

But I realised that everyone's different.
So both of you might be someone who needs an explaination before you guys actually understands how others are feeling.
So, I'm here to clarify.

What she says, that I'm always changing cliques in just a while..
Alright, this is a fact.
But why didn't the both of you understands why like Joel did?
Because it's not just me but everyone that does this.
Maybe because you just didnt stop and think, to realise that you're doing it too.

You are hanging out with another group of people now right?
Why?

Its just simply because that different people appear during the different times of your life.

Just so because the usual clique, some went to poly/jc/working/still in sec sch..
So you can't possibly be alone in school or during work right?
That is why people hang out with different people at times.

And about the forgetting the old friends when made new friends..
This is seriously absurd.
She actually got the nerves to even say it out and esp to the one who raised me up for 18yrs when she doesn't even have any fucking right to say it.

Believe me, I will never forgive her.

She's just someone whom I thought was a goodfriend until what she did to me which makes me lost all the trust in her.
She's not even someone who is close to me like Chelsy/Michelle/Joey who knows almost all my friends to start with.
So what makes her think that she could say such a thing?

I don't understand why I actually became so depress when I found out from my mom that she actually said this to her.

Because the goodfriends that I went to ask if I'm such person actually scolded me for thinking so much when I know I am not one myself.
Because the fact that I know I had been putting friends as the top piority in my life.
And because the fact that I had been always finding time to go out with the good old friends I had.

Maybe you guys don't know this because I didn't tell you all.
But seriously, until recently I had been still ranting to some of my friends that I miss going out with you guys so so freaking much and the fact that I really want to go back to the past whereby we always hang out together.
The so so strong friendship that we all had, I want it back.

Well, the reason why you guys think this way is also maybe because I had too much goodfriends but too little time..
Apart from finding time to go out with you guys, I also need to find time to go out with my Awesome Four, my Girlfriends, my JC Classmates, my JC OG Group, my Working friends and not forgetting the Other friends I had in Pri sch and Sec sch nd JC who wants to go out and meetup after such a long time.

I'm sorry for the poor time management that I always had.
After this problem, I will now set my time even better so that I can meetup with all the friends I had despite even I had to work now and after I start school.

Okay, this might be so yucky but still, I had to say this because it's been inside of me for so long..

"I hold you guys so so important in my life that I would cry over any little things when problems arise between us. I don't want to lose any one because of this problem and especially the two of you and him. Just because of the fact that the three of you had already become the most important people in my life since a few years back.."

"I can't live without you guys in my life and I really can't imagine how's life gonna be if I would ever lose you guys."

So I say, why not we forget all the unhappiness that different people had caused :)
Reunion dinner, my house, again! :D
[I'll go bug my mom and this time please don't let her appear with f**** again.]
Lets start anew in this coming new year!
Go back to what we are like nothing had happen!


Every single friends is so important in my life so please understand me..
Ending this post, I've got a song to dedicate to all the friends I've got :D

Vitamin C - Graduation (Friends Forever) -

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